Archive for February, 2008

jeudi treize

{ February 28, 2008 @ 10:07 pm } · { 13\ }
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Ok this Thursday’s theme is stuff I am so over. I am in a mood so it might as well reflect in my list. So there.

1. ‘Green’ Clorox green cleaning supplies?? Really?? C’mon now. Because vinegar and baking soda is soooooooooo disgusting.

2. ‘Natural’ JUST because something is organic doesn’t mean it is good for you. Now, before you get out your locally grown organic free range whooping stick I do buy as local and organic as I can but organic fried dough is STILL fried dough. Arsenic is organic doesn’t mean you should eat it.

3. Celebrity’s babies. I don’t care who is pregnant, who lost their kids, or what the flippin baby is wearing.

4. Obama…. I know he is looking like the next prez and I am a supporter but c’mon now it isn’t like he is curing cancer. He is a politician…… there is a reason he got this far and it isn’t because he was the best boyscout. Don’t go all crazy on me here. I like him. He talks a great game….. but I just don’t trust much.

5. Moms….. and you know the type. This ain’t a competition here, honey. We are all just trying to do the best we can (and if you aren’t then you can suck it) Why must we be so mean to each other? We should be supporting each other. I am lucky enough to have some mom friends that I can be real with but I know what the other half is….. shoes, carriers, schools (or not school or really really not school),  toys, walking, talking…….. why can’t the best reward be a fine adult that is confident and happy?

6. Food tv. Yes, I watch tv sometimes *gasp the horror* and I used to adore food tv but now it is more “celebrity food tv” and I am so over it. Bring back Graham Kerr and Ming Tsai and Jacque Torres.

7. Hollywood summer blockbusters. If someone in the movie says “I’m too old for this shit”I don’t want to watch it.

8.  Hipsters…. yes we know you are cool. Yes you are probably better than me in just about every way from your vintage shirt to your breath stealing tight jeans now please stop glaring at me during breakfast at a family restaurant. A FAMILY RESTAURANT.

9.  Pets. I like cats and dogs. I understand you love your cats and dogs. I will say it. They are not children. Stop it.

10. Radio. I am an avid npr listener and as far as I am concerned there needs to be nothing else on there because they play nothing else on there. I try to listen but all I get is ads or some lame “shock jock” radio personality and I am so over that.

11.  Myself. Just listen to me ranting. Like I am so great. I am so over me.

12.  Magazines (and this is purely sour grapes) Every time I love one it becomes obsolete.

13.  Portland….. wait no, I love Portland…. wait I hate Portland….. no no I love it here…..

alright now that I stirred up that hornets nest….. let the yelling at me begin.

That kind of day

{ February 28, 2008 @ 8:32 am } · { Uncategorized }
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Ok I am going mainstream. Grey has been nursing for about 76 hours straight and when he isn’t on the boob shredding my stomach with his talon like toe nails he is “uh! uh! uh!”-ing about wanting more boobie now. So, that is it for me… we are buying a crib, some pampers and a bottle. We are going to get an Excusuburbtahummer truck and move to a housing community and eat at Applebees on special occasions and McDonalds every other night. I am going to get a job and dress the kids in head to toe baby gap. We will take them to the dr this afternoon and get them all good and vaxed and have him circed while we are there.

I have the feeling that the 13 tonight will be a little ranty too.

XIII

{ February 21, 2008 @ 11:25 pm } · { 13\ }
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Alright……… this Thursday’s theme is mellow. I need some more mellow in my life and here are 13 bands that help me to get there….

1.DCFC

2.Low

3.Elliott Smith

4.Cat Stevens
**bonus clip from best movie ever**

5.The Smiths

6.Nina Simone

7.The Decemberists

8.Cat Power

9.Ben Harper

10.Wilco (with Billy Bragg)

11.Charlotte Gainsbourg

12.Jack Johnson

13.Portishead

Thursday 13

{ February 14, 2008 @ 11:29 pm } · { MNM, reflection }
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Here we go again….. the theme this Thursday is Love. Here are 13 things that I love. (not counting MNM who for the record freakin rocks my socks. He brought me fancy pants chocolate and lilies today and my kids who are the greatest smartest funniest kids in the known universe ((yeah I do want to fight about it))

1. Music. I. LOVE. MUSIC. I listen to something new every week. I have like 10,000 songs. I eat sleep and breathe music. There is always a song in my head.

2. Art. Mainly post modern art. I am very very fond of Basquiat you can sneak a peek here .

3. Food (see last week’s 13)

4. Reading. Magazines, books, recipes….. I love to read (although you wouldn’t know it by my blog posts)

5. NPR. I am a total npr junkie. This American Life, Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me, Car Talk, love love the Puzzle Sunday morning with Will Shortz, and my absolute favorite The Splendid Table. I even get TST on podcast so I can listen to it over again later in the week.

6. Dancing. I love to dance. Now that I am an old fat mama I don’t go out and dance anymore but back in the day I was a dancing machine. I have danced in over 10 productions getting to do such things as dance in a cage wearing go go boots and dance as a vampire victim. All my dancing these days I get to do with someone under 3 feet tall and wobbly. BUT he does let me lead.

7. Knitting. Uh yeah if you didn’t already know I love to knit.

8. Shoes. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm shoes. I still have my uber punk combat boots they live along side my now Portland issued Danskos.

9. The black t shirt. Uh stop laughing. It is true love. I will never stray. If loving the black t is wrong I don’t want to be right.

10. Gin and Tonic and a cigarette. home. they remind me of good times.

11. Hotels. My idea of “heaven” is a hotel. Room service, laundry service, pools, spas, valets……….. you never have to leave. They take care of everything. Ahhhhhhh

12. Goofy movies. My deep dark secret (or not so secret) is that I love goofball comedies. But they can’t be too dumb. I have a weakness for Will Farrell and Adam Sandler (except for the chuck and larry shit) My arty friends give me endless amounts of shit over this but I don’t care. Elf is funny The Wedding Singer is funny.

13.  Office Supplies. Note pads, blue medium ink pens, type writers, ledgers, staplers, and best of all pencils. Ahhhhh the smell of pencils takes me back to a warm safe place……

To my valentine

{ February 14, 2008 @ 8:56 am } · { MNM }
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This year I will let John Lennon speak for me.

I love you!

I really do.

Thursday Thirteen

{ February 8, 2008 @ 12:14 am } · { Life, day-to-day }
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Ok I doubt I will keep this up forever but here goes……

Foods and drinks I love:

1. Chocolate. I adore chocolate. It is a mood food for me. I wish I could say that I only love high quality chocolate but that is not true. I do indulge in the kit kat when I feel fun and kit katy. I LOVE Newman’s Own milk chocolate (even though it doesn’t love me back) and Green and Black’s dark chocolate should come with some sort of warning.

2. Beer. I am partial to ambers and dark beers.

3. Bread. Chewy crunchy bread, think nutty bread, sweet bread, brown bread. I LOVE bread. I love the process of making bread, kneading, waiting, kneading… and then the smell of it baking. I am suddenly at peace when I smell bread baking.

4. Coffee. ***I am not a caffeine addict*** I really love coffee and all that goes with it. I like the social aspects of coffee as much as I like the smell and taste of coffee.

5. Roasted chicken. Roast me a chicken and I will love you forever. Crisp skin and juicy. That is all I need to say.

6. Potatoes. I like them just about any way you are willing to make them. Baked,boiled,fried…… hashbrowns (not a homefry girl) roasted with the above mentioned chicken…cooked in bacon fat…. I could go on and on.

7. Cheese. I have an unnatural love of cheese. It doesn’t really love me back (at least not cow’s milk cheese) I am in love with sheep’s milk cheese at the moment.

8. Hot Wings. I am not explaining.

9. Cake. Just about any. I am not a huge fan of cheesecake.

10. Berries. I didn’t even know I loved berries until I moved to the pnw. Oddly enough the desert doesn’t grow fresh sweet berries.

11. Tea……………. just something about ritualized drinking that I adore.

12. Cookies. yes. coooooookies. Any kind. Any type. No milk.

13. Cured meats…. salami. I could have salami, bread, and cheese forever with their honorable mention friend olives.

Politik

{ February 5, 2008 @ 2:52 pm } · { govment }
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Ok I am not one to normally talk politics in an open forum but this is my blog and I will ramble on about anything I want. I have a really hard time every election year for 2 main reasons….#1 My personal ethnic background is shit upon past present and future it seems. #2 It feels like if you aren’t a Christian you are strange but if you are an atheist you can not be trusted.  A poll came out last year that atheists are the least trusted group in America….nice eh? What happened to the separation of church and state??? I am so fucking sick of people (politicians) using their bibles instead of their brains. I don’t care what imaginary being you turn to when you feel low and weak … I care about what you are going to do about alternative energy…. I care that my rights are equal to every one else’s…. I care about leaving Iraq… I could care less about you being a good chrisitian. That phrase sets off such alarms in my head and makes it hard for me to vote objectively. Why can’t we leave your god out of my government? I know this country was “founded” by puritans so I shouldn’t be shocked every year but haven’t we moved past that already? The thought of having a “man of god”  (Huckabee) in office scares me in a way I can not express.

That is all I guess. Rant over.

Big thinking

{ February 4, 2008 @ 10:41 am } · { Friends, Life, MNM, reflection }
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My life is in a state of flux right now. I was reminded last night that I really do hate where I live and it sparked late night discussion with mnm about our priorities. We talked about if we are so attached to  Portland that we would sacrifice our feeling of safety in our home? Is our community more important than our day to day sanity? Do we really want to uproot our family and abandon our support system? I think that I have been so afraid of having to make friends all over again I have blinded myself to how awful this place is for us. My kids don’t play outside. We don’t go for walks here. There are police chases and meth addicts and homeless guys in the alley……… it is improving but there is only so long I can wait. My kids are only young once.

So we came up with a plan I think we can make work. Over the next year we are doing a purge. We will sell this house and hope to at least break even and walk away. We will find a place to rent for a short term (like 6 mo) and work out what our priorities really are and where we see ourselves. We have motivational problems that we need to work on but it feels good to know that we have a working plan and a goal that I think we can achieve.

On another flux note…… I feel like I am trying too hard to make people like me. I think I need to take a step back and examine why this is happening. I guess I have a lot of work to do. Good thing we aren’t trying for a baby right now too ! lol

Brave River

{ February 2, 2008 @ 3:55 pm } · { MNM, River, day-to-day, reflection }
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River had her ears pierced today. We went to Nomad and had Blake pierce her ears. She was nervous and scared but so so brave. He was quick and calming. It was over fast and now she has beautiful new ear rings. I am so very impressed by the whole experience. Blake took pictures for us and I might share them with you. It was such a special experience for me and River. I held it together until I was alone and then wept for how brave she was and how badly I wanted to hold her until the pain was gone.

Then we went to OMSI and Scrap.

Tonight MNM and I have a date. We are going bowling and it should be fun. Nothing like cheap beer and rented shoes to keep the spark alive!